Is it you in there? Somebody started to put down roots, but I'm not sure if it's you. If it is - KEEP FIGHTING. Grow. Live. You are very, very much wanted. It's okay to let go if you have to, but we want you to stay if you can. With your family background (including my and your great-Nana's stubbornness) I know you're a fighter. You can make it. I'll do whatever you need me to do in order to give you a chance to grow and develop enough to be born healthy.
I love you.